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2003-06-26 | 12:50 a.m. DarBY
Please dont' judge me on this entry- it sucks but I needed it
so I'm sitting up tonight she drives to Texas tomorrow and it's over we stop living together and I think about everything that has happened in 11 months excluding two visits home my life my life my life my life it's so different I have so much going on in my head and so much going on in yours at least I'm not travelling alone completely I'll always have my california cat god things were so different here and no one got to see them no one saw me limit drinking and coke and speed and sex and and and and and well you get it and now I'm going back to a world that I don't have to have any nights alone and my bed is smaller and people don't wear scarfs all year round scarfs and sandals all year and my hair is dark darker than it's every been and I don't know what to do with it because it hurts a little to feel so different and remeber it all and ramble like this and know this entry sucks but the cat is laying on me and I keep trying to tell him we're leaving packing up to be continued at a later time but he's been abandoned one other time so he's less than a year and he follows me everywhere and fetches and loves me unconditionally but he looks at me cautiously when I type late at night and I know we fit because after 11 months we don't trust anyone anymore thank you catcher in the rye
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