I�M feeling today- pretty anxious because I�m trying to pinpoint my anxiety. It seems endless. Sounds endless but everyone has to have a goal or so I keep telling myself to give myself the anxiety so I can continue to pinpoint it. It�s a reoccurring theme in my life, the endless, along with the anxiety, and the in over my head, and the dominance, and�well I don�t want to delve. It wasn�t always this way, anxiety and endless fascination aside, there was quiet sometimes when I closed my eyes, a beautiful quiet when I could listen to nothing or remember songs and I didn�t hear repetitive past conversations or grocery lists or worried words telling me what I need to do next� or or� there was a brilliant silence and I could let go instead of chasing these circles of wonder that contain the same cyclical questions of chasing�
I�m motivated, but what am I motivated to do? And why do I feel the need to always be doing something?

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