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2004-03-24 | 12:44 p.m. 1.2......3.....4......
waiting for this feeling to go away today it�s awful and it makes me sit at my desk and not be able to get up I was fine when I came in And then suddenly it just hit me No one thing It all just happened to collide And collapse inside my head I call the shrink and beg for an appointment and stare at the phone like these are m last moments Each moment feels like the last Each second tics in my head And I begin counting� like I had before, like I had before� 1..2..3�4�5�6 I have to make sure the second hand isn�t lying If I don�t watch it there will never be 60 seconds in this minute And by process�. Today isn�t a good day for me.. It isn�t the boy today.. it isn�t the essay today.. it isn�t the future.. it�s just getting thru today I don�t want to just go home I just want it to all stop Again I don�t want to make myself feel better�it�s so much work day in and day out and I still have these awful days This awful awful day Writing isn�t helping.
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