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2004-01-23 | 12:06 p.m. the BLAMe GaME
You know what I think I�m having a little breakdown today Just a little one Looking at those little pills again in my bag Wondering If they�ll stop me from fearing hallways So much for bad memories- And I see it in my head now That same vision It�s three days after And I�m at one end of the hallway It�s still freshman year And I�m looking down the hallway Standing there alone I inhale deeply because this is the first time alone in this new life And I walk quickly since I don�t know this way (looking down, running, fear all very new) My hands are wrapped tight in front of me My bag is strapped to my back It�s empty in my lungs It�s empty in my body And I walk trying so hard not to touch anyone Pass anyone Look up at anyone Think of anyone but myself And especially not him even though he is around me everywhere I don�t want to occupy my own space So I walk as quickly as I can Through the faces Through the hallway But it�s not fast enough And people brush by me And I don�t want them to But once again I can�t help it; They tell me it�s not my fault
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