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2004-01-21 | 9:03 a.m. 2:00 am 1.20.2004
My head was on your pillow And I could see you staring at me Then I would close my eyes and think to myself: This is not happening- why can�t I smile- And then I curled into your chest, my eyes still closed and felt your heart beat It wasn�t happening again otherwise I never would have been able to do that And this�. I wasn�t drunk I wasn�t high I wasn�t trying to re-create a situation � again I didn�t need anything from you, I wanted things from you- I wanted to hear your heartbeat again You accept me � my life, my body, my logic, my whims The killing moon was on the radio when I drove route 60 home I thought I was going to cry But I didn�t Instead I just stared off driving no faster than 25 the whole way home Lost in thought Lost in you Lost in myself I went home and had that dream last night That interchangeable awful dream that I�ve dreamt so many times I think you were in It but I cannot be sure Writing at 2:00 am
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