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2003-11-24 | 11:03 a.m. SleePYMONday
I haven't been alone in some time now and last night at the emo show i worked i stood there staring at the band that i had seen two years before watchin the kids stage dive and scream and mouth all the words and I felt that ringing in my ears *ladies and gentleman this is never a good sign* for a split second I started breathing heavy and i coudl feel this warmth in my brain and I could hear this buzz and i think I went crazy for a second again still well again but then someone tapped my should and i walked back the van and the memory died well i forgot abotu it until i started listening to this mix tape at work and now i'm a little nervous because I know the beginings of it all i just don't know rember the ends- they get a little fuzz so much for that gran idea of thinking it was all in my head and the narcotics i miss saturday mornings fighting about going to the temescal cafe and having the sun beam in from the windows that had no curtains onto the bed that had no sheets... i miss laying there naked and alone but alone..with my arm hanging over the side and the off white blanket with black tattoo ink staining the center i miss waking up over and over again without having to get up getting up is so hard some days i think i need to get over myself and i think i need more sleep....
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