yeah.

i feel it again.

the internal monologue that drives me to...

it occurred to me last night driving that the things I can't handle in moderation - the things that drive me hardest I have to quit. I can't backdown. I can't just do those things every once in a while. It just has to leave my life and leave me thinking about it. How good it was. How bad it was.

how boring I am now.

The old me will never be back since I've sedated her with this sheltering life... it's like an electric fence to keep it all in an awake and alert.

It's odd what 8 hours of sleep does to me.

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