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2004-02-05 | 3:11 p.m. AParTMents WIth ViewS
Yes I�m a bit of an exhibitionist. But� I�m thinking thinking thinking About you How we both need more sleep How have I lived this long without connecting with someone Instantly Immediately Like a flash And how we both fit So well And then I think of the past�and the present.... Why have I been so nervous� And where is this smile coming from? And how I�m always the one wondering if it�ll be me That cares that 51% And you that 49% But I guess it�ll be okay Because I haven�t let myself be that percentage in so long And I�m trying to be calm Collective cool Like my mother told me when I was younger Cool� calm... collective� But It�s hard you show me what your kindof happy is.. and i've never experienced it.. you hold my hand when i don't reach for yours... Perhaps the hardest thing I can do right now Is hold back The words in the back of my throat And the writing And the bliss But I do- Just in case I need to keep that little fence up A couple of field mines Just in case You try to whisper your way past me Through me And leave me speechless By not leaving me And not letting me abandon me
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