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2002-11-12 | 2:49 p.m. yOU's* I'm going to do this alone Which isn't a surprise to me and now that you want to support me that shouldn't be a surprise either because of all of the things I've been to all of the people I've been them to and all of the time I have to think about it all of the dirt that I have that bathes me from it. I've been your mother I've been your nag, your sister your porn star your ace in the hole... I gave you that $20 to buy that high, that happiness, that moment of lust and I hitchhiked home or walked, or worse, I stayed and watched you laugh. I've been your guilt and your anchor in all of my free spirited youthful ways... I've gotten older when you've gotten younger; I've gotten older when I've gotten older.. I've been your secret, your closet and your dressed up trick pony.. I've been your girlfriend your supposed female boyfriend.. I've been your drug, your druggie, your instrument- a needle and some water... I have been destruction and I have been the band aid with a mother's soft kiss, I've been that tap on the forehead, that kiss on your closed eyes, I've ridden you; I've succumbed to you and I've been a wall to keep your insides there and protected; I stroked your hair when you were ill... I've been death, you've killed me before, twice I've lost breathe for you- I've been that dog at your feet, that one you kick after a bad day and the one you pet after a good one.. I don't growl at the guests even when you want me to.... *I am that girl that stares up from the ground to see why i'm there; *I am that girl who knows why he didn't call back and why I didn't give him the right number; *I am the girl who will never give up the fight I'd rather end the relationship- well now I would; *I am the girl who knows you never stooda chance; *I am the girl who wanted to lay down next to you but moved quickly away instead; *I am the girl who had words because she thought she knew who you were- but was wrong ...and *I am the girl who will never let go of you, to all of the you's. before | after |