**it IS thIs ringing and the running that makes me sleep curled up and warm. Because I know YOUR not calling, it's not your ring. ***It isn't her she's blue on the floor and he's standing over her because he's done trying to kick her alive. ***it's not him calling because he can't remeber the same phone number I've had for years in the same house he stood outside of and wanted kicking at the pickets that were everything he kept telling people that would calm him down. ***He's never been good with numbers, it's not him, he can't even handle call waiting but it doesn't matter either because someone else is staring at him now looking for direction blinding him with admiration that he can't see me trying to show him what i think i still owe him. ***And i know it isn't him calling because we both moved on and agreed to be friends, the kind that only talk when he wants to see where his life went right and I want to see where mine went wrong.

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